so much

Its been a while sense my last post and i've been trying t0 keep up with a notebook so this is being neglected. so i pulled out of ferrum and was going to go to classes here and then i got an email from the volleyball coach saying how much they really want me to go there. well i broke down and realize i really want to play volleyball and i cant if i stay here. so i told them i wanted to attend and asked what i needed to do to come this fall. they said they wont know for sure until monday when everyone gets back into the office. this weekend has been so long and i knwo today will be the longest day of my life as i wait to figure out what i need to do. i really hope i can still come in. i really want to go. they have a rolling deadline so i should still be able to they should just look at my application and re-admit meand everything sense my deposit is already paid and they said it would stay until next year. i'm so excited and its so hard to wait until i know. its driving me crazy. o well i'll do whatever i have to but i really want to go to ferruma nd play volleyball.

New Chapter

today i graduated high school. i'm so glad to be done with that part of my life. i got a new laptop that i'm still trying to figure out and make it a little faster. right now it is annoying me but we will see. i graduated with honors and an advanced diploma. my parents still dont know i pulled out of ferrum. the plan is to tell them i wanted to wait a semster before going back and go from there. i do plan on going to TCC after one semester. i thought i would feel really different but i dont. so along with the new laptop i got headphones a balloon from tysha and some money. i'm nervous about this. new chapter of my life. who knows what will happen next. i need to start turning in job applications and really try to get a job. we still need a lot of money to get the garage fixed up. lets see how fast we can get that done. i love my kevin and i'm so excited about moving in with him and spending more time with him. even if my family doesnt know about all my plans yet and i know they might not be happy this is my life and what i want and they will have to get over it. they can either deal with my choise now and stand behind me on it or wait until i turn 18 and then i'll move in with him anyways and then they may never see me again. well i should go get ready for bed. its been a long day and i'm tired even though i dont have to wake up early. yay. NIGHTY NIGHT

stuffity stuff stuff

well bruno went to his new home today. tomorrow witht eh money we are going to buy a new fan for the room so its not as hot in there. so much to still get done. took some sweat pants undies socks and t-shirts over there. still need to take more over there and we need to buy another dresser because i have a lot of clothes. well senior day tomorrow, english exam on tuesday, and gradutation on thursday. we also have graduation practice tomorrow. this will be fun. the next week should be busy. im ready to grow up and get out of this house. im excited and nervous at the same time. NIGHTY NIGHT

fun day

well this morning started off way to earlier. Natalie started coming into my room about 7:30 trying to wake me up when i hadnt planed on waking up until 9. well finaly about 8:15 i get out of bed. nothing to do until natalie's game at 11. at her game the other coach knew she had down syndrome and after she batted( two tries and didnt hit it) they let her run all the way around the bases. it was great. the rest of the game i spent yelling at her to sit down or stop doing one thing or another. after the game we wetn and picked up kevin shannon and the boys and headed to the beach. it was fun and we all got a little pink luckily for me im the only one in the group that wont stay pink and will tan out. after the beach mallory took natalie and stopped by kevin's to change and went to mcdonalds with stephanie and shannon and the boys. me shannon and stephanie sat and talked about all thing's Mosley House. then went back to the house and cleaned up. no matter how much sweeping happens in that room its always gets dirty again because of the dogs.we think we found a home for bruno and they are supposed to come get him tomorrow morning. after he gets picked up we are going to walmart to get another fan for the room sense kevin likes to be a fan hog and some snacks i told kevin we would get. and i want to look at the cheap dresser so i can start taking clothes over there. well its been a long day so im off to bed. another great adventure ahead of us tomorrow. NIGHTY NIGHT

lala

today we started cleaning. still trying to rehome bruno. because of our new plan we cant keep both dogs so we are trying to find him a new home. we have so much to do. tomorrow mom is taking taylor jospeh and bailey to track and me and shannon (kevin's cousin) had planned on taking the boys to teh beach. so tomorrow i have to take natalie to her game at 11 and then beach at 4 then we have someone coming over after 4 to check out the place for petsitting. should be a fun day. im excited. time to shower and go to bed. NIGHTY NIGHT

New Plans

so much has been going on lately. i have decided i dont want to go to college this year and that i want to move in with kevin the only thing is how to tell my parents without them freaking out and i know my dad will threaten both me and kevin but im almost graduated from high school and it sucks that ill still be 17 until september. me and kevin have talked about everything and we have a plan but my parents only see what they want to. my dad decided i would go to ferrum and play volleyball. i realized i dont even want to play volleyball anymore but i feel like i cant tell them that. they make me feel like i cant talk to them because they would only get mad at what i have to say. if its not what my dad says is right then its wrong and he flips out what he doesnt realize is that this is my life and not his. he cant control me forever. i need to call ferrum and let them know i wont be coming. everything is so confusing and i know what i want and what will make me happy but it scares me because i know my parents wont approve and will flip shit because they already dont like kevin and his family but this isnt about them. i want them to know without me telling them but i know that wont happen and i dont want to tell my dad but i know i need to. the plan is to slowly move my clothes and stuff over to kevins so by the time i decide to really move over there it will be better. i've made up my mind and this is what i want and it doesnt matter what everyone else including my family has to say. i know my parents will forever look down on me. ill be the one child that didnt do everything they want and didnt go to a college right away like they wanted. i know i will complete school its just not what i want to do right now i have other things i want to do first. ok this is enough for now i really need to start writing more often. OOOO one more thing 2 more days and one exam until im done with school. i graduate next thursday and im so ready to be out of high school. ok NIGHTY NIGHT

65 things

random things most people probably don't know about me

1. i hate feeling like i need to brush my teeth
2. before i go to bed every night i pee, brush my teeth, wash my face, and pee again
3. i hate being pastie
4. i slowly became addicted to tanning
5. me and my boyfriend have 2 puppies
6. we have a lab/hound/Sheppard mix named daisy and a lab/pit bull mix named Bruno
7. our puppies are our babies. its our little family
8. we also do pet sitting
9. i cant wait to get out of this house
10. i plan on going to college for elementary education
11. i love volleyball but my knees don't
12. i don't know when my butt got so big
13. i hate being told I'm tall. yes i already know this i don't need to be told everyday
14. i want to coach volleyball one day
15. i hate feet they are ugly
16. i hate being touched. when people just come up and touch me it makes me want to hit them
17. i also hate when people touch my stuff. its mine not yours so keep your hands off
18. i hate when people think I'm stupid. I'm smart just lazy
19. i like to read just not being told what to read
20. i have a book app. on my phone so i can read books on it
21. i have a promise year from my boyfriend that he gave me for Christmas.
22. i want to live on a farm
23. i want to have as many children as i can have
24. i want to have pigs, cows, horses and chickens
25. i hate having long hair because its always in the way
26. i also don't like when its to short to wear in a pony tail
27. i almost away have my hair up
28. i don't drink soda
29. i don't eat candy and try not to eat fast food.
30. i hate when people come into my room without asking
31. my boyfriend is my best friend
32. i love walking places and would walk more if my knee didn't hurt when i did
33. i like country and rap music
34. i want to live in a small area where everyone knows everyone else
35. i would love to be a stay at home wife and home school my kids if i could afford to.
36. i would make the perfect housewife. i cook clean do laundry and can take care of kids
37. i hate putting away clothes. I'll wash them and fold them but i hate having to put them away
38. i like my kitchen to stay perfectly clean and hate when people spill things and make messes and don't clean them up or just leave things on the counter
39. i eat to much. i snack when i have nothing else to do.
40. even though i eat a lot I'm no where close to being fat
41. without volleyball i would be fat
42. i drive without my licence on me most of the time
43. i like to go shopping but hate spending my own money
44. i want to run a rescue organization for pit bulls
45. i want to adopt children with Down Syndrome
46. i want to help as many people as i can
47. i have the attention span of a 5 year old and get distracted very easily
48. once i get something on my mind i don't forget about it until its done
49. i make list to remind myself what i need to do.
50. i don't know if anyone reads my blog but it makes me feel better just being able to write it
51. i need to stop taking very long naps after school
52. i need to go to bed at an earlier time
53. i love to cook.
54. i love taking the kids out to do things
55. i love cooking with Natalie
56. Natalie is my favorite person ever. she has helped me so much and always makes me smile
57. Natalie has changed the person i am and I'm a better person sense she came along
58. Natalie has Down Syndrome and is the baby of the family but she can do the same things as everyone else it just takes her a little bit longer to do somethings
59. i am one of 8 kids. 2 half sisters 4 sisters and only one brother
60. i plan on marrying my boyfriend after college.
61. even though my dad almost hates Kevin. i don't think he really has a reason to.
62. i hate that he is always trying to get me to break up with him. its my life and my relationship and his opinion has no say
63. i hate when people try and tell me what to do and how to do things. its my life
64. if your going to ask me to do something and then complain about how to do it then you can do it.
65. if my dad keeps treating me like crap the way he does I'm going to leave one day and he wont see me ever again.

i feel like thats enough about me for right now

the end

after 2years 1 month and 1 day its officialy over.i dotn know what im going to do but i knwo its for the best
EDIT
we only stayed broke up for about 15 hours. i realized i made a hug mistake so we are back together and happy

Sleepy

i need to start going to bed earlier. tomorrow we are spenign the day cleaning the house. its crazy that after only 1 day without being able to due laundry due to the broken drier we have so much laundry to catch up with. well i'm off to bed. this is the shortest post ive made in a while. i'll write more when im not half asleep tomorrow. OO and my garden is doign good. nothing is dead yet and i have baby carrots coming up. NIGHTY NIGHT

8 More Weeks turned in a healthcare rant

i cant believe it. 8 more weeks until graduation. it could not come fast enough. as i just finish about 50 vocabulary words that i should of done before i keep telling myself not to wait until the last minute to do my work. but i keep doing it. at least I'm getting it done before its due and not waiting until the last minute to do everything again. so things are going slow here. the past two nights I've taken Natalie to the YMCA to swim and was going to take an aqua combo class tonight but after going swimming the past two nights i didn't feel like it. Sense i have practice tomorrow then I'll go take the class Friday night. i went shopping tonight instead because i needed a new bathing suit and i got both the top and bottom for $3.75 each and a t-shirt for $3.25. I was excited because i don't have the money to spend $15 on both pieces. this weekend is Opening Day for the rec league so I'll be going with Joseph and Natalie sense my dad will be out of town at a tournament with Taylor and my mom will be at TVA with bailey for a tournament. i love opening day so I'm excited plus i always get a lot of sun from it and i need to start getting tanner for prom. which i still need to pay for my ticket which is $75 but i don't want to spend my own money on it even though i know i should. sense Taylor's team is going to nationals and we have the Disney trip planed plus my parents had to pay $4500 in taxes we don't have much money. yes both my parents make good money but with 6 kids. one in college and 3 playing travel volleyball we don't have much extra money. i think its stupid that my parents have to pay so much in taxes. they work hard for their money but their hard earned money to going to the low class people so they can get more not fair to them. we talked about this in government today, that the people paying for all the new health care bill programs are the people who don't need it. which doesn't make sense to me why should the people who don't need it have to pay for it. shouldn't the people who actually need it be the ones who have the most tax increase. my teacher went on about how a lot of the homeless people who need it are veterans and i proceeded to tell her that veterans still get retirement benefits so they don't need the health care and they still have retirement pay. then she said what if the were dishonorable discharged and i told her that was their fault, they could of had all this two but the messed up. i don't see why i should feel bad for those who mess up their own lives. i have no problem helping those struggling families who just need a little help to get back on their feet with the economy and the part of the bill about not disapproving people with Preexisting conditions and kicking children with conditions but is about all i agree with. this is one of those bills that will make people even lazier. HECK if the government was paying for my food, health care, children then why would i want to get a job. if everything is paid for me why would i want to try to improve. this just makes me angry. what also made me angry about this bill is that it could cause the congressman WHO SIGNED THIS BILL to loss benefits and some coverage before the changes take place. they didn't know this when they signed the bill. if they didn't know this would happen to them because of this bill WHAT ELSE DON'T THEY KNOW ABOUT IT. things like that worry me about the people running this country. yeah this bill is a good idea but adding taxes while we are already in a bad economy is just going to make things worse. Mr. O makes me feel like i could be president HECK i just have to tell people i plan on doing things and I'll get a noble peace prize. I bet if you asked half the people who voted for him why they did they couldn't tell you. i feel that if he wasn't part black then he wouldn't of been elected. the most people voted that election because there was a black man running. and i don't care if this offends people but its pretty much true. I've asked people why they voted for him and they couldn't tell me why. does this tell you something. O our government is falling apart as we dig the country deeper and deeper into debt. No Mr. O you cant just keep printing money whenever you need it that causes INFLATION which if you paid any attention in history class we learned that if you keep making more paper money with nothing to back it up the paper money will be become pretty much useless and the more you continue to print the higher everything else starts to cost and puts us into a deeper depression. does the GREAT DEPRESSION ring a bell to anyone. well enough of this its getting late and I'm ready for bed time NIGHTY NIGHT!

ALMOST THERE!!

Today was the first day of my last nine weeks of high school. I'm so ready to be done with this and go off to college. But I still have so much to do before graduation. i still need to take 2 placement test and a student readiness inquiry something like that. while i tried to do that tonight neither my mom's or my computer would let us get on so i guess i have to wait for tomorrow to do it and if my computer wont let me i guess i'll have to use one at school. i also still need to order my cap and gown but the website we are supposed to be able to order them from doesnt have our school on it so I'm not sure what im supposed to do about that. i guess i'll email the guy or something. This nine weeks im going out of my way to keep up with everything. last nine weeks i let myself get WAY to far behind but not this time. i'm ready to graduate and i dont want anything to get in the way of the end of my year. i dont want to stress myself out again at the end of the year when there are more important things to worry about. i cant believe i'm almost done with this. nine more weeks and i'm out of this town. yeah i being by the beach is great but when you live here there is only so much you can do before it all gets boring. im ready to go to Ferrum. A new place a new start. I'm excited to go to the country and the mountains. it will be a HUGE change from our beach side city. the only thing i'm worried about is being so far from home. yeah i'm ready to be out but i know i will miss everyone here. i've made some close friends that have helped me through this senior year. and my "senior math buddy' bryan who we are going to make sure we both keep with all our work this nine weeks because he was more behind then me last time. well its getting late and i need to go to bed. i'm going to try and limit my after school naps so that i can get more homework in and then go to bed earlier. my friend just gave me a website to order my cap and gown so i'm going to go try that then go to bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!

pictures from today

me and my love

i think he is way better looking then me.

Kevin and my dog, daisy, she is getting so big. she is 7 months old and very well behaved. we love her so much. and we just bought a little kiddy pool. we wanted it for daisy when it get hot and she loves it at first she didn't know what to do with it but we put some of her toys in it and now she will walk around in it but has yet to lay down it i. once i starts getting really hot i think she will. we also do pet sitting so the dogs that we watch during the summer will get to enjoy it while they are outside playing without having to worry about them getting to hot. i glad we decided to get it.

lettuce, red chili, green peppers, and corn

leek and tomatoes with carrot seeds in between,

i also has carrots sprouting that will be planted there too

me and Taylor made the box holding it

its not very pretty but I'm happy with it

three things on my mind tonight

Yesterday was Kevin and my two years!
I cant believe we have really been together for two years. It feels longer and shorter at the same time. He makes me so happy even though we fight sometimes the past week we have been off for spring break so we have spent all week together. we celebrated by going to see "how to train your dragon" and having dinner at the cinema cafe and then just spending the whole day together. It has been great to spend all this time together before our two years. I feel like this is a huge accomplishment. some people get married in shorter amount of time then this. I know I'm going to marry him and i have for a long time. I know we will make it through the next four years that I'm in college and after we do it will show everyone else how much this is meant to me. I love my Kevin so very much and I'm so glad that at 17 i already know who I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. i love that he understands my crazy sides and stands by me through everything and that he knows everything i want in my future and still wants to stand beside me for all my crazy plans. i know this is my Forever and ever.
No more soda or candy for me!
I decided a couple of weeks ago i decided i wasn't going to drink soda anymore. why? because its unneeded calories and when I'm thirsty its easier to just drink water even though ill still chose juice sometimes I'm also trying to stop drinking sugary drinks too. they aren't good for you. plus drinking soda dehydrates you so when your thirsty and drink soda is actually does the opposite.its just unneeded plus after not drinking soda for the past 3 weeks and just having a Little today it really hurt my stomach. also i decided that I'm no longer going to eat candy. its sugar and other things that are bad for you. also every time i eat even a little candy is makes my stomach hurt so why would i eat something just for the flavor if it makes me feel like crap. so instead of candy i want to go out and buy a bag of walnut and almonds and snack on those when i want to snack on something instead. I'm slowly trying to cut all of the crap food out of my diet and start eating things that are better for me, I'm doing as much as i can with only being 17 and not buying my own groceries.
Almost finished my garden!
yesterday Taylor and I made a garden box. its made out of 6 2x4's and measures 8x4 and is 8 inches deep. we screwed two 2x4's together to make it taller. it was annoying to make but its worth it to be able to have a bigger garden this year. After Taylor finished building it while i took a nap we filled it with soil and 2 25lbs of moo-nure(i thought its was a funny name). so today we finished it by planting most of our stuff. today we plants corn, green bell peppers, red peppers, lettuce, tomatoes, and leek. we have other plants still sprouting in seeds. The carrots have sprouted but we are still waiting for them to get bigger before we plant them. We also have strawberries to plant but i don't want to plant them with the rest because they take over everything. So we will hopefully have some watermelon, more tomatoes, and more strawberries sprouting. at the moment the strawberries and tomatoes aren't doing good but we have 4 of one of them sprouting I'm just not sure which one it is. I'm very excited about all the vegetables that i will be able to eat out of my own garden. it so exciting. our garden failed last year so I'm very looking forward to this year. I'll take pictures of it during the day and put them up tomorrow.

i feel like i have written enough tonight so time to relax a little from a GREAT day and get ready to go to bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!

days like this

days like this i cant wait to go off to college. shows me how much everyone at the house really care about me. so when i hurt my finger it took over a month for them to take me in to get it checked out and they only took me in because natalie was sick even though it had stayed swollen and i couldnt move it they just kept telling me it was fine. so tonight we ere getting along and joseph kept rubbing the socks i had on. so to move his foot away i moved my foot forwards to get it off my foot. and then of course he starts to cry. then they start yelling at me for kicking him when i didnt kick him. mom and mallory both yelled at me on how i broke his finger. im glad they care when it happens to him and not to me. mom said they didnt know mine had been broken cause yeah not being able to move it and swelling never going down deffently shows its not broken. but the second joseph starts to cry like a little girl and rachel is the bad person. god i feel like everythign and everyone in this house comes before me. no one ever cares abotu me. i dont feel like they apperciate me. i do so much work around here but all anyone ever see is all the wrong things i do. do they care when i clean the whole kitchen and make dinner. no what matters is that one day i dont feel like doing any cleanign because thats all i've been doing all week then i get yelled at for being lazy and not doing anything. i cant wait to get out of here. college couldnt come any faster. i hate that my family makes me feel like shit for every little thing i do wrong. arent they supposed to stand behind you. i feel like they stand behind everyone but me. i will NEVER treat my children as shitty as im treated. i'm tired of being told i dont do any work and i dont deserve any of my allowence. well if i stoped doing all the work i do then this house would be a wreck most of the time. but no they can only point out all the negative things and none of the positive. so thanks family for tongith and reminding me that once im out of here i really dont want to ever come back. i'm going to either go to bed or do somethign else to aviod my family for the rest of the night. NIGHTY NIGHT!

a few more hours

im falling behind in EVRYTHING. i just need more hours. i cant seem to make myself do anywork at home. i dont know what to do. i need to stay after and get help but i never want to. and my parents arent helping me feel any better by yelling at me. grounding doesnt help either. i'll just stay home and sleep and do other things besides homework. urggggg i need to do better. starting tomorrow i'm going to keep up with all my work. im staying after in math to get extra help and i'll get all my stuff done. i need to bring my grades up before graduation. i know im already accepted but it will look bad if i continue to let my grades fall. i just need about 4 more hours in a day. so i can get mroe sleep and im not extremely tired all teh time but also so i have more time to get mroe work done. when i start doiing homework i always think about other things i need to get done, like laundry or cleaning the kitchen or cleaning the living room or bathroom. there is always something besides homework to do. it would be SO MUCH EASIER if other people in my house did more work instead of waiting for it all to magicaly clean itself, well it doesnt work out that way so i end up being the only one cleaning most of the time. i noticed this today when i hadnt cleaned the kitchen sense last week. it was a DISASTER, apparently no one in my house is allowed to clean the kitchen but me because no one else does. none of the other kids clean unless you sit there and yell at them for 5 minutes. im the only one that cleans because i cant stand things being dirty. well i have a lot to do tomorrow and i'm very sleepy. also i just joined www.ehow.com so im hoping that give me more advice on organizing my time and everything else. well i'm off to bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!

warm weather

I'm so excited. today was 75 degrees. i'm way past ready for the warm weather to come. but it is supposed to rain for the next 3 days so i hope that doesnt stop the warmness. o well i wont be here this weekend so i dont care if its rainy. i'm ready to start working on the garden planting flowers fruits and vegetables. i want to try and make a bigger garden this year. last year ours was little so i'm going to talk to mom about letting me make a bigger garden maybe in the back corner of the yard where there isnt any grass but with some miricle grow i think it will make a nice garden. mayeb after school tomorrow i'll go out there and look at it. i really want a big a garden so i can grow a lot. as long as i rememeber to water it everyday ours died last year becauser we went away for a weekend and it died. so i'll have to keep really up wit it this year. figure out something to do. it does get hot and i dont want them to die. i know last year our little garden my mom watered int he morning and i watered in the afternoon. i keep makign these big plans and i hope i cna go through with them. well time to finish getting ready for bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!

so much for early bed

i planed on going to bed early tonight but here i am needing to go to bed and taylor is asking me to help her with her chemistry homework sense i'm the only one in the house who is any good at it. im sleepy and way past ready to go to bed. today i broke my sun glasses so i need to go buy new ones after school thursday before i go up to PA this weekend. tonight's entry is short but i really want to go to bed soon. NIGHT NIGHTY!

To Much Advil

SOOO i decided tonight that i use way to much advil. For every pain i have i take two. i need to start finding other ways to deal with headaches, muscle pains, cramps, and my knee pains without taking advil everytime something hurts. i guess tomorrow i'll look up ways to solve the pain without putting medicine and drugs into my body. mayeb i'll start getting less headaches and pains if i can find other solutions. someone told me once that taking pain relievers doesnt solve the problem it just covers it up, so instead of finding a solution or why it hurts you just covering up the pain and not fixing anything. so i guess thats on my too do list for tomorrow. and tonight i made scrambled eggs with my brown eggs and i must say there was a slight difference. they deffently had more flavor to them then the regular store bought eggs. but i dont want to use them up to fast sense the place i bought them from was 30 minutes away and thats a lot of gas in the burb. i want to try and find a farm that sells them closer to the house and maybe other things, most of the other places i found who sell farm eggs are more exspensive. i bought an 18 pack for $3 and i saw another place sell a dozen for $4. well i'll see what i can do. i would go look at the farmers market this weekend but i'll be in penn for a volleyball tournament so i guess maybe sometime next week or something. the weekend afetr that i'm goign to an open house at Ferrum and to their volleyball open gym sense the coach hasnt been able to see me play yet. well lots of exciting things coming up and im really trying to keep this up to date on the wondrfull uselesss information involved in my life. and i decided even if no one else reads this it makes me feel better by getting my thoughts out there. alright time for bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!

brown eggs

After practice today i went to a small family farm and bought some eggs. i want to eat mroe localy grown foods to help our local economy. this is just the first step and i cant wait to use them. first we have to use up the other eggs we have. i was excited that each egg was a different shade. i hope i can keep buying eggs from this place and maybe some other stuff. i really want to keep a garden this year. last year we were doing wityh our garden and then we went away for a weekend and they all died. so i'm hoping we do better. i would love to have the tomato plants again. and also cucumbers maybe watermelon, i'm not sure what else yet sense we dont have much room to grow stuff but we will see. now that the weather is getting warmer its time to get outside and start clearing out the flower beds and get them ready for this year. i'm exicted for it. i just wish i could keep my own chickens at the houser so we could use our own eggs. when i finaly buy my own house i want to be able to have chickens and goats and a cow. i would love a little farm house and be able to grow all the food my family needs. that would be my dream come true. i'll do what ever i can do to make that happen. if i make all my family's food then i know that they arent eating any bad things added hormones and bad stuff they add. well i'm off to do other stuff. later gator!

college+scholarships=less money out of my pocket

sense next year there will be both me and mallory in college i have been lookign online for scholarships. i foudn this great website for them www.zinch.com but its been annoying me. i have applied for a couple but i cant really find any great ones. i really need the money and i guess i'll look at it more tomorrow when im not sleepy and grumpy. i'm just annoyed with this. i need a zillion more dollars for college or so it seems. with the school grant and tag total pretty much covers almost the whole first two years but that still leaves me with 2 more years to find the money for. i really need to look for more money hidden every where. the school keeps telling us about all these scholarships that go unclaimed well someone where tell me where they are and sign me up for those. i need all the money i can get to help my parents out. with both me and mallory off at college and then 4 kids still at home and bailey and taylor will be in travel volleyball again next year its going to be A LOT of cost my parents will have to be paying for. plus me personally i dont want to have a bunch of student loans to have to pay off when i get out of school. college debt is the last thing i want to think about after my 4 years of college. so i guess tomorrow will be more of searching for all the extra money i can find. but in the end i know it will be worth it. the more money i can find in scholarships the less i have to pay off later. well i'm keeping my fingers cross and praying as hard as i can to be able to find a bunch of scholarships. it would be great if i could get enough to completely pay off everything for freshman year. and after freshman year i'll worry about whats next but right now that is my main focus. all i want to know is why is college so dang exspensive. well i'm off to get ready for bed now. nighty night!

lalala

so our team was supposed to have a tournament Sunday but we didnt make ti in. i got a letter from RMC saying i got accepted. to bad im going to ferrum. that means i made it into all 3 colleges i applied to. yay. so now that im all caught up on English i have to make sure i stay caught up. i need to really puch my self this last semester of my senior year. have to finish cleaning my room tomorrow. i'll probably make bread tomorrow too. got my WoW account active again so i played a little tonight with kevin and will play more tomorrow. lets just hope it doesn't interfere with everything else. i'm just glad its the weekend. i need to get lots of sleep cause i never feel like i sleep enough even though i sleep all the time. well time for bed now im sleepy and have stuff to do tomorrow. if its warm i want to wash the burb. night night!

time goes by

WOW its been a while sense ive posted something. things are crazy. so update. daisy just turned 6 months old. daisy is kevin and my puppy. on the tenth it will be 23 months for us. im going to ferrum in the fall. volleyball is going good. i had torn tendons in my middle finger but thats better. to much stuff. ill try and keep up with this better. there is a picture of daisy at a doggy meetup at the beach. she is getting so big. i need to get more stuff with english done. and i want to start eating better and exercising and trying to walk with freckles every day and so much stuff i want to do i need to stop being so lazy. agggg. its hard to believe that i'll be graduating in a couple months. im getting so old