65 things

random things most people probably don't know about me

1. i hate feeling like i need to brush my teeth
2. before i go to bed every night i pee, brush my teeth, wash my face, and pee again
3. i hate being pastie
4. i slowly became addicted to tanning
5. me and my boyfriend have 2 puppies
6. we have a lab/hound/Sheppard mix named daisy and a lab/pit bull mix named Bruno
7. our puppies are our babies. its our little family
8. we also do pet sitting
9. i cant wait to get out of this house
10. i plan on going to college for elementary education
11. i love volleyball but my knees don't
12. i don't know when my butt got so big
13. i hate being told I'm tall. yes i already know this i don't need to be told everyday
14. i want to coach volleyball one day
15. i hate feet they are ugly
16. i hate being touched. when people just come up and touch me it makes me want to hit them
17. i also hate when people touch my stuff. its mine not yours so keep your hands off
18. i hate when people think I'm stupid. I'm smart just lazy
19. i like to read just not being told what to read
20. i have a book app. on my phone so i can read books on it
21. i have a promise year from my boyfriend that he gave me for Christmas.
22. i want to live on a farm
23. i want to have as many children as i can have
24. i want to have pigs, cows, horses and chickens
25. i hate having long hair because its always in the way
26. i also don't like when its to short to wear in a pony tail
27. i almost away have my hair up
28. i don't drink soda
29. i don't eat candy and try not to eat fast food.
30. i hate when people come into my room without asking
31. my boyfriend is my best friend
32. i love walking places and would walk more if my knee didn't hurt when i did
33. i like country and rap music
34. i want to live in a small area where everyone knows everyone else
35. i would love to be a stay at home wife and home school my kids if i could afford to.
36. i would make the perfect housewife. i cook clean do laundry and can take care of kids
37. i hate putting away clothes. I'll wash them and fold them but i hate having to put them away
38. i like my kitchen to stay perfectly clean and hate when people spill things and make messes and don't clean them up or just leave things on the counter
39. i eat to much. i snack when i have nothing else to do.
40. even though i eat a lot I'm no where close to being fat
41. without volleyball i would be fat
42. i drive without my licence on me most of the time
43. i like to go shopping but hate spending my own money
44. i want to run a rescue organization for pit bulls
45. i want to adopt children with Down Syndrome
46. i want to help as many people as i can
47. i have the attention span of a 5 year old and get distracted very easily
48. once i get something on my mind i don't forget about it until its done
49. i make list to remind myself what i need to do.
50. i don't know if anyone reads my blog but it makes me feel better just being able to write it
51. i need to stop taking very long naps after school
52. i need to go to bed at an earlier time
53. i love to cook.
54. i love taking the kids out to do things
55. i love cooking with Natalie
56. Natalie is my favorite person ever. she has helped me so much and always makes me smile
57. Natalie has changed the person i am and I'm a better person sense she came along
58. Natalie has Down Syndrome and is the baby of the family but she can do the same things as everyone else it just takes her a little bit longer to do somethings
59. i am one of 8 kids. 2 half sisters 4 sisters and only one brother
60. i plan on marrying my boyfriend after college.
61. even though my dad almost hates Kevin. i don't think he really has a reason to.
62. i hate that he is always trying to get me to break up with him. its my life and my relationship and his opinion has no say
63. i hate when people try and tell me what to do and how to do things. its my life
64. if your going to ask me to do something and then complain about how to do it then you can do it.
65. if my dad keeps treating me like crap the way he does I'm going to leave one day and he wont see me ever again.

i feel like thats enough about me for right now

the end

after 2years 1 month and 1 day its officialy over.i dotn know what im going to do but i knwo its for the best
EDIT
we only stayed broke up for about 15 hours. i realized i made a hug mistake so we are back together and happy

Sleepy

i need to start going to bed earlier. tomorrow we are spenign the day cleaning the house. its crazy that after only 1 day without being able to due laundry due to the broken drier we have so much laundry to catch up with. well i'm off to bed. this is the shortest post ive made in a while. i'll write more when im not half asleep tomorrow. OO and my garden is doign good. nothing is dead yet and i have baby carrots coming up. NIGHTY NIGHT

8 More Weeks turned in a healthcare rant

i cant believe it. 8 more weeks until graduation. it could not come fast enough. as i just finish about 50 vocabulary words that i should of done before i keep telling myself not to wait until the last minute to do my work. but i keep doing it. at least I'm getting it done before its due and not waiting until the last minute to do everything again. so things are going slow here. the past two nights I've taken Natalie to the YMCA to swim and was going to take an aqua combo class tonight but after going swimming the past two nights i didn't feel like it. Sense i have practice tomorrow then I'll go take the class Friday night. i went shopping tonight instead because i needed a new bathing suit and i got both the top and bottom for $3.75 each and a t-shirt for $3.25. I was excited because i don't have the money to spend $15 on both pieces. this weekend is Opening Day for the rec league so I'll be going with Joseph and Natalie sense my dad will be out of town at a tournament with Taylor and my mom will be at TVA with bailey for a tournament. i love opening day so I'm excited plus i always get a lot of sun from it and i need to start getting tanner for prom. which i still need to pay for my ticket which is $75 but i don't want to spend my own money on it even though i know i should. sense Taylor's team is going to nationals and we have the Disney trip planed plus my parents had to pay $4500 in taxes we don't have much money. yes both my parents make good money but with 6 kids. one in college and 3 playing travel volleyball we don't have much extra money. i think its stupid that my parents have to pay so much in taxes. they work hard for their money but their hard earned money to going to the low class people so they can get more not fair to them. we talked about this in government today, that the people paying for all the new health care bill programs are the people who don't need it. which doesn't make sense to me why should the people who don't need it have to pay for it. shouldn't the people who actually need it be the ones who have the most tax increase. my teacher went on about how a lot of the homeless people who need it are veterans and i proceeded to tell her that veterans still get retirement benefits so they don't need the health care and they still have retirement pay. then she said what if the were dishonorable discharged and i told her that was their fault, they could of had all this two but the messed up. i don't see why i should feel bad for those who mess up their own lives. i have no problem helping those struggling families who just need a little help to get back on their feet with the economy and the part of the bill about not disapproving people with Preexisting conditions and kicking children with conditions but is about all i agree with. this is one of those bills that will make people even lazier. HECK if the government was paying for my food, health care, children then why would i want to get a job. if everything is paid for me why would i want to try to improve. this just makes me angry. what also made me angry about this bill is that it could cause the congressman WHO SIGNED THIS BILL to loss benefits and some coverage before the changes take place. they didn't know this when they signed the bill. if they didn't know this would happen to them because of this bill WHAT ELSE DON'T THEY KNOW ABOUT IT. things like that worry me about the people running this country. yeah this bill is a good idea but adding taxes while we are already in a bad economy is just going to make things worse. Mr. O makes me feel like i could be president HECK i just have to tell people i plan on doing things and I'll get a noble peace prize. I bet if you asked half the people who voted for him why they did they couldn't tell you. i feel that if he wasn't part black then he wouldn't of been elected. the most people voted that election because there was a black man running. and i don't care if this offends people but its pretty much true. I've asked people why they voted for him and they couldn't tell me why. does this tell you something. O our government is falling apart as we dig the country deeper and deeper into debt. No Mr. O you cant just keep printing money whenever you need it that causes INFLATION which if you paid any attention in history class we learned that if you keep making more paper money with nothing to back it up the paper money will be become pretty much useless and the more you continue to print the higher everything else starts to cost and puts us into a deeper depression. does the GREAT DEPRESSION ring a bell to anyone. well enough of this its getting late and I'm ready for bed time NIGHTY NIGHT!

ALMOST THERE!!

Today was the first day of my last nine weeks of high school. I'm so ready to be done with this and go off to college. But I still have so much to do before graduation. i still need to take 2 placement test and a student readiness inquiry something like that. while i tried to do that tonight neither my mom's or my computer would let us get on so i guess i have to wait for tomorrow to do it and if my computer wont let me i guess i'll have to use one at school. i also still need to order my cap and gown but the website we are supposed to be able to order them from doesnt have our school on it so I'm not sure what im supposed to do about that. i guess i'll email the guy or something. This nine weeks im going out of my way to keep up with everything. last nine weeks i let myself get WAY to far behind but not this time. i'm ready to graduate and i dont want anything to get in the way of the end of my year. i dont want to stress myself out again at the end of the year when there are more important things to worry about. i cant believe i'm almost done with this. nine more weeks and i'm out of this town. yeah i being by the beach is great but when you live here there is only so much you can do before it all gets boring. im ready to go to Ferrum. A new place a new start. I'm excited to go to the country and the mountains. it will be a HUGE change from our beach side city. the only thing i'm worried about is being so far from home. yeah i'm ready to be out but i know i will miss everyone here. i've made some close friends that have helped me through this senior year. and my "senior math buddy' bryan who we are going to make sure we both keep with all our work this nine weeks because he was more behind then me last time. well its getting late and i need to go to bed. i'm going to try and limit my after school naps so that i can get more homework in and then go to bed earlier. my friend just gave me a website to order my cap and gown so i'm going to go try that then go to bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!

pictures from today

me and my love

i think he is way better looking then me.

Kevin and my dog, daisy, she is getting so big. she is 7 months old and very well behaved. we love her so much. and we just bought a little kiddy pool. we wanted it for daisy when it get hot and she loves it at first she didn't know what to do with it but we put some of her toys in it and now she will walk around in it but has yet to lay down it i. once i starts getting really hot i think she will. we also do pet sitting so the dogs that we watch during the summer will get to enjoy it while they are outside playing without having to worry about them getting to hot. i glad we decided to get it.

lettuce, red chili, green peppers, and corn

leek and tomatoes with carrot seeds in between,

i also has carrots sprouting that will be planted there too

me and Taylor made the box holding it

its not very pretty but I'm happy with it

three things on my mind tonight

Yesterday was Kevin and my two years!
I cant believe we have really been together for two years. It feels longer and shorter at the same time. He makes me so happy even though we fight sometimes the past week we have been off for spring break so we have spent all week together. we celebrated by going to see "how to train your dragon" and having dinner at the cinema cafe and then just spending the whole day together. It has been great to spend all this time together before our two years. I feel like this is a huge accomplishment. some people get married in shorter amount of time then this. I know I'm going to marry him and i have for a long time. I know we will make it through the next four years that I'm in college and after we do it will show everyone else how much this is meant to me. I love my Kevin so very much and I'm so glad that at 17 i already know who I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. i love that he understands my crazy sides and stands by me through everything and that he knows everything i want in my future and still wants to stand beside me for all my crazy plans. i know this is my Forever and ever.
No more soda or candy for me!
I decided a couple of weeks ago i decided i wasn't going to drink soda anymore. why? because its unneeded calories and when I'm thirsty its easier to just drink water even though ill still chose juice sometimes I'm also trying to stop drinking sugary drinks too. they aren't good for you. plus drinking soda dehydrates you so when your thirsty and drink soda is actually does the opposite.its just unneeded plus after not drinking soda for the past 3 weeks and just having a Little today it really hurt my stomach. also i decided that I'm no longer going to eat candy. its sugar and other things that are bad for you. also every time i eat even a little candy is makes my stomach hurt so why would i eat something just for the flavor if it makes me feel like crap. so instead of candy i want to go out and buy a bag of walnut and almonds and snack on those when i want to snack on something instead. I'm slowly trying to cut all of the crap food out of my diet and start eating things that are better for me, I'm doing as much as i can with only being 17 and not buying my own groceries.
Almost finished my garden!
yesterday Taylor and I made a garden box. its made out of 6 2x4's and measures 8x4 and is 8 inches deep. we screwed two 2x4's together to make it taller. it was annoying to make but its worth it to be able to have a bigger garden this year. After Taylor finished building it while i took a nap we filled it with soil and 2 25lbs of moo-nure(i thought its was a funny name). so today we finished it by planting most of our stuff. today we plants corn, green bell peppers, red peppers, lettuce, tomatoes, and leek. we have other plants still sprouting in seeds. The carrots have sprouted but we are still waiting for them to get bigger before we plant them. We also have strawberries to plant but i don't want to plant them with the rest because they take over everything. So we will hopefully have some watermelon, more tomatoes, and more strawberries sprouting. at the moment the strawberries and tomatoes aren't doing good but we have 4 of one of them sprouting I'm just not sure which one it is. I'm very excited about all the vegetables that i will be able to eat out of my own garden. it so exciting. our garden failed last year so I'm very looking forward to this year. I'll take pictures of it during the day and put them up tomorrow.

i feel like i have written enough tonight so time to relax a little from a GREAT day and get ready to go to bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!

days like this

days like this i cant wait to go off to college. shows me how much everyone at the house really care about me. so when i hurt my finger it took over a month for them to take me in to get it checked out and they only took me in because natalie was sick even though it had stayed swollen and i couldnt move it they just kept telling me it was fine. so tonight we ere getting along and joseph kept rubbing the socks i had on. so to move his foot away i moved my foot forwards to get it off my foot. and then of course he starts to cry. then they start yelling at me for kicking him when i didnt kick him. mom and mallory both yelled at me on how i broke his finger. im glad they care when it happens to him and not to me. mom said they didnt know mine had been broken cause yeah not being able to move it and swelling never going down deffently shows its not broken. but the second joseph starts to cry like a little girl and rachel is the bad person. god i feel like everythign and everyone in this house comes before me. no one ever cares abotu me. i dont feel like they apperciate me. i do so much work around here but all anyone ever see is all the wrong things i do. do they care when i clean the whole kitchen and make dinner. no what matters is that one day i dont feel like doing any cleanign because thats all i've been doing all week then i get yelled at for being lazy and not doing anything. i cant wait to get out of here. college couldnt come any faster. i hate that my family makes me feel like shit for every little thing i do wrong. arent they supposed to stand behind you. i feel like they stand behind everyone but me. i will NEVER treat my children as shitty as im treated. i'm tired of being told i dont do any work and i dont deserve any of my allowence. well if i stoped doing all the work i do then this house would be a wreck most of the time. but no they can only point out all the negative things and none of the positive. so thanks family for tongith and reminding me that once im out of here i really dont want to ever come back. i'm going to either go to bed or do somethign else to aviod my family for the rest of the night. NIGHTY NIGHT!

a few more hours

im falling behind in EVRYTHING. i just need more hours. i cant seem to make myself do anywork at home. i dont know what to do. i need to stay after and get help but i never want to. and my parents arent helping me feel any better by yelling at me. grounding doesnt help either. i'll just stay home and sleep and do other things besides homework. urggggg i need to do better. starting tomorrow i'm going to keep up with all my work. im staying after in math to get extra help and i'll get all my stuff done. i need to bring my grades up before graduation. i know im already accepted but it will look bad if i continue to let my grades fall. i just need about 4 more hours in a day. so i can get mroe sleep and im not extremely tired all teh time but also so i have more time to get mroe work done. when i start doiing homework i always think about other things i need to get done, like laundry or cleaning the kitchen or cleaning the living room or bathroom. there is always something besides homework to do. it would be SO MUCH EASIER if other people in my house did more work instead of waiting for it all to magicaly clean itself, well it doesnt work out that way so i end up being the only one cleaning most of the time. i noticed this today when i hadnt cleaned the kitchen sense last week. it was a DISASTER, apparently no one in my house is allowed to clean the kitchen but me because no one else does. none of the other kids clean unless you sit there and yell at them for 5 minutes. im the only one that cleans because i cant stand things being dirty. well i have a lot to do tomorrow and i'm very sleepy. also i just joined www.ehow.com so im hoping that give me more advice on organizing my time and everything else. well i'm off to bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!

warm weather

I'm so excited. today was 75 degrees. i'm way past ready for the warm weather to come. but it is supposed to rain for the next 3 days so i hope that doesnt stop the warmness. o well i wont be here this weekend so i dont care if its rainy. i'm ready to start working on the garden planting flowers fruits and vegetables. i want to try and make a bigger garden this year. last year ours was little so i'm going to talk to mom about letting me make a bigger garden maybe in the back corner of the yard where there isnt any grass but with some miricle grow i think it will make a nice garden. mayeb after school tomorrow i'll go out there and look at it. i really want a big a garden so i can grow a lot. as long as i rememeber to water it everyday ours died last year becauser we went away for a weekend and it died. so i'll have to keep really up wit it this year. figure out something to do. it does get hot and i dont want them to die. i know last year our little garden my mom watered int he morning and i watered in the afternoon. i keep makign these big plans and i hope i cna go through with them. well time to finish getting ready for bed. NIGHTY NIGHT!