so much

Its been a while sense my last post and i've been trying t0 keep up with a notebook so this is being neglected. so i pulled out of ferrum and was going to go to classes here and then i got an email from the volleyball coach saying how much they really want me to go there. well i broke down and realize i really want to play volleyball and i cant if i stay here. so i told them i wanted to attend and asked what i needed to do to come this fall. they said they wont know for sure until monday when everyone gets back into the office. this weekend has been so long and i knwo today will be the longest day of my life as i wait to figure out what i need to do. i really hope i can still come in. i really want to go. they have a rolling deadline so i should still be able to they should just look at my application and re-admit meand everything sense my deposit is already paid and they said it would stay until next year. i'm so excited and its so hard to wait until i know. its driving me crazy. o well i'll do whatever i have to but i really want to go to ferruma nd play volleyball.

New Chapter

today i graduated high school. i'm so glad to be done with that part of my life. i got a new laptop that i'm still trying to figure out and make it a little faster. right now it is annoying me but we will see. i graduated with honors and an advanced diploma. my parents still dont know i pulled out of ferrum. the plan is to tell them i wanted to wait a semster before going back and go from there. i do plan on going to TCC after one semester. i thought i would feel really different but i dont. so along with the new laptop i got headphones a balloon from tysha and some money. i'm nervous about this. new chapter of my life. who knows what will happen next. i need to start turning in job applications and really try to get a job. we still need a lot of money to get the garage fixed up. lets see how fast we can get that done. i love my kevin and i'm so excited about moving in with him and spending more time with him. even if my family doesnt know about all my plans yet and i know they might not be happy this is my life and what i want and they will have to get over it. they can either deal with my choise now and stand behind me on it or wait until i turn 18 and then i'll move in with him anyways and then they may never see me again. well i should go get ready for bed. its been a long day and i'm tired even though i dont have to wake up early. yay. NIGHTY NIGHT

stuffity stuff stuff

well bruno went to his new home today. tomorrow witht eh money we are going to buy a new fan for the room so its not as hot in there. so much to still get done. took some sweat pants undies socks and t-shirts over there. still need to take more over there and we need to buy another dresser because i have a lot of clothes. well senior day tomorrow, english exam on tuesday, and gradutation on thursday. we also have graduation practice tomorrow. this will be fun. the next week should be busy. im ready to grow up and get out of this house. im excited and nervous at the same time. NIGHTY NIGHT

fun day

well this morning started off way to earlier. Natalie started coming into my room about 7:30 trying to wake me up when i hadnt planed on waking up until 9. well finaly about 8:15 i get out of bed. nothing to do until natalie's game at 11. at her game the other coach knew she had down syndrome and after she batted( two tries and didnt hit it) they let her run all the way around the bases. it was great. the rest of the game i spent yelling at her to sit down or stop doing one thing or another. after the game we wetn and picked up kevin shannon and the boys and headed to the beach. it was fun and we all got a little pink luckily for me im the only one in the group that wont stay pink and will tan out. after the beach mallory took natalie and stopped by kevin's to change and went to mcdonalds with stephanie and shannon and the boys. me shannon and stephanie sat and talked about all thing's Mosley House. then went back to the house and cleaned up. no matter how much sweeping happens in that room its always gets dirty again because of the dogs.we think we found a home for bruno and they are supposed to come get him tomorrow morning. after he gets picked up we are going to walmart to get another fan for the room sense kevin likes to be a fan hog and some snacks i told kevin we would get. and i want to look at the cheap dresser so i can start taking clothes over there. well its been a long day so im off to bed. another great adventure ahead of us tomorrow. NIGHTY NIGHT

lala

today we started cleaning. still trying to rehome bruno. because of our new plan we cant keep both dogs so we are trying to find him a new home. we have so much to do. tomorrow mom is taking taylor jospeh and bailey to track and me and shannon (kevin's cousin) had planned on taking the boys to teh beach. so tomorrow i have to take natalie to her game at 11 and then beach at 4 then we have someone coming over after 4 to check out the place for petsitting. should be a fun day. im excited. time to shower and go to bed. NIGHTY NIGHT

New Plans

so much has been going on lately. i have decided i dont want to go to college this year and that i want to move in with kevin the only thing is how to tell my parents without them freaking out and i know my dad will threaten both me and kevin but im almost graduated from high school and it sucks that ill still be 17 until september. me and kevin have talked about everything and we have a plan but my parents only see what they want to. my dad decided i would go to ferrum and play volleyball. i realized i dont even want to play volleyball anymore but i feel like i cant tell them that. they make me feel like i cant talk to them because they would only get mad at what i have to say. if its not what my dad says is right then its wrong and he flips out what he doesnt realize is that this is my life and not his. he cant control me forever. i need to call ferrum and let them know i wont be coming. everything is so confusing and i know what i want and what will make me happy but it scares me because i know my parents wont approve and will flip shit because they already dont like kevin and his family but this isnt about them. i want them to know without me telling them but i know that wont happen and i dont want to tell my dad but i know i need to. the plan is to slowly move my clothes and stuff over to kevins so by the time i decide to really move over there it will be better. i've made up my mind and this is what i want and it doesnt matter what everyone else including my family has to say. i know my parents will forever look down on me. ill be the one child that didnt do everything they want and didnt go to a college right away like they wanted. i know i will complete school its just not what i want to do right now i have other things i want to do first. ok this is enough for now i really need to start writing more often. OOOO one more thing 2 more days and one exam until im done with school. i graduate next thursday and im so ready to be out of high school. ok NIGHTY NIGHT

65 things

random things most people probably don't know about me

1. i hate feeling like i need to brush my teeth
2. before i go to bed every night i pee, brush my teeth, wash my face, and pee again
3. i hate being pastie
4. i slowly became addicted to tanning
5. me and my boyfriend have 2 puppies
6. we have a lab/hound/Sheppard mix named daisy and a lab/pit bull mix named Bruno
7. our puppies are our babies. its our little family
8. we also do pet sitting
9. i cant wait to get out of this house
10. i plan on going to college for elementary education
11. i love volleyball but my knees don't
12. i don't know when my butt got so big
13. i hate being told I'm tall. yes i already know this i don't need to be told everyday
14. i want to coach volleyball one day
15. i hate feet they are ugly
16. i hate being touched. when people just come up and touch me it makes me want to hit them
17. i also hate when people touch my stuff. its mine not yours so keep your hands off
18. i hate when people think I'm stupid. I'm smart just lazy
19. i like to read just not being told what to read
20. i have a book app. on my phone so i can read books on it
21. i have a promise year from my boyfriend that he gave me for Christmas.
22. i want to live on a farm
23. i want to have as many children as i can have
24. i want to have pigs, cows, horses and chickens
25. i hate having long hair because its always in the way
26. i also don't like when its to short to wear in a pony tail
27. i almost away have my hair up
28. i don't drink soda
29. i don't eat candy and try not to eat fast food.
30. i hate when people come into my room without asking
31. my boyfriend is my best friend
32. i love walking places and would walk more if my knee didn't hurt when i did
33. i like country and rap music
34. i want to live in a small area where everyone knows everyone else
35. i would love to be a stay at home wife and home school my kids if i could afford to.
36. i would make the perfect housewife. i cook clean do laundry and can take care of kids
37. i hate putting away clothes. I'll wash them and fold them but i hate having to put them away
38. i like my kitchen to stay perfectly clean and hate when people spill things and make messes and don't clean them up or just leave things on the counter
39. i eat to much. i snack when i have nothing else to do.
40. even though i eat a lot I'm no where close to being fat
41. without volleyball i would be fat
42. i drive without my licence on me most of the time
43. i like to go shopping but hate spending my own money
44. i want to run a rescue organization for pit bulls
45. i want to adopt children with Down Syndrome
46. i want to help as many people as i can
47. i have the attention span of a 5 year old and get distracted very easily
48. once i get something on my mind i don't forget about it until its done
49. i make list to remind myself what i need to do.
50. i don't know if anyone reads my blog but it makes me feel better just being able to write it
51. i need to stop taking very long naps after school
52. i need to go to bed at an earlier time
53. i love to cook.
54. i love taking the kids out to do things
55. i love cooking with Natalie
56. Natalie is my favorite person ever. she has helped me so much and always makes me smile
57. Natalie has changed the person i am and I'm a better person sense she came along
58. Natalie has Down Syndrome and is the baby of the family but she can do the same things as everyone else it just takes her a little bit longer to do somethings
59. i am one of 8 kids. 2 half sisters 4 sisters and only one brother
60. i plan on marrying my boyfriend after college.
61. even though my dad almost hates Kevin. i don't think he really has a reason to.
62. i hate that he is always trying to get me to break up with him. its my life and my relationship and his opinion has no say
63. i hate when people try and tell me what to do and how to do things. its my life
64. if your going to ask me to do something and then complain about how to do it then you can do it.
65. if my dad keeps treating me like crap the way he does I'm going to leave one day and he wont see me ever again.

i feel like thats enough about me for right now

the end

after 2years 1 month and 1 day its officialy over.i dotn know what im going to do but i knwo its for the best
EDIT
we only stayed broke up for about 15 hours. i realized i made a hug mistake so we are back together and happy

Sleepy

i need to start going to bed earlier. tomorrow we are spenign the day cleaning the house. its crazy that after only 1 day without being able to due laundry due to the broken drier we have so much laundry to catch up with. well i'm off to bed. this is the shortest post ive made in a while. i'll write more when im not half asleep tomorrow. OO and my garden is doign good. nothing is dead yet and i have baby carrots coming up. NIGHTY NIGHT

8 More Weeks turned in a healthcare rant

i cant believe it. 8 more weeks until graduation. it could not come fast enough. as i just finish about 50 vocabulary words that i should of done before i keep telling myself not to wait until the last minute to do my work. but i keep doing it. at least I'm getting it done before its due and not waiting until the last minute to do everything again. so things are going slow here. the past two nights I've taken Natalie to the YMCA to swim and was going to take an aqua combo class tonight but after going swimming the past two nights i didn't feel like it. Sense i have practice tomorrow then I'll go take the class Friday night. i went shopping tonight instead because i needed a new bathing suit and i got both the top and bottom for $3.75 each and a t-shirt for $3.25. I was excited because i don't have the money to spend $15 on both pieces. this weekend is Opening Day for the rec league so I'll be going with Joseph and Natalie sense my dad will be out of town at a tournament with Taylor and my mom will be at TVA with bailey for a tournament. i love opening day so I'm excited plus i always get a lot of sun from it and i need to start getting tanner for prom. which i still need to pay for my ticket which is $75 but i don't want to spend my own money on it even though i know i should. sense Taylor's team is going to nationals and we have the Disney trip planed plus my parents had to pay $4500 in taxes we don't have much money. yes both my parents make good money but with 6 kids. one in college and 3 playing travel volleyball we don't have much extra money. i think its stupid that my parents have to pay so much in taxes. they work hard for their money but their hard earned money to going to the low class people so they can get more not fair to them. we talked about this in government today, that the people paying for all the new health care bill programs are the people who don't need it. which doesn't make sense to me why should the people who don't need it have to pay for it. shouldn't the people who actually need it be the ones who have the most tax increase. my teacher went on about how a lot of the homeless people who need it are veterans and i proceeded to tell her that veterans still get retirement benefits so they don't need the health care and they still have retirement pay. then she said what if the were dishonorable discharged and i told her that was their fault, they could of had all this two but the messed up. i don't see why i should feel bad for those who mess up their own lives. i have no problem helping those struggling families who just need a little help to get back on their feet with the economy and the part of the bill about not disapproving people with Preexisting conditions and kicking children with conditions but is about all i agree with. this is one of those bills that will make people even lazier. HECK if the government was paying for my food, health care, children then why would i want to get a job. if everything is paid for me why would i want to try to improve. this just makes me angry. what also made me angry about this bill is that it could cause the congressman WHO SIGNED THIS BILL to loss benefits and some coverage before the changes take place. they didn't know this when they signed the bill. if they didn't know this would happen to them because of this bill WHAT ELSE DON'T THEY KNOW ABOUT IT. things like that worry me about the people running this country. yeah this bill is a good idea but adding taxes while we are already in a bad economy is just going to make things worse. Mr. O makes me feel like i could be president HECK i just have to tell people i plan on doing things and I'll get a noble peace prize. I bet if you asked half the people who voted for him why they did they couldn't tell you. i feel that if he wasn't part black then he wouldn't of been elected. the most people voted that election because there was a black man running. and i don't care if this offends people but its pretty much true. I've asked people why they voted for him and they couldn't tell me why. does this tell you something. O our government is falling apart as we dig the country deeper and deeper into debt. No Mr. O you cant just keep printing money whenever you need it that causes INFLATION which if you paid any attention in history class we learned that if you keep making more paper money with nothing to back it up the paper money will be become pretty much useless and the more you continue to print the higher everything else starts to cost and puts us into a deeper depression. does the GREAT DEPRESSION ring a bell to anyone. well enough of this its getting late and I'm ready for bed time NIGHTY NIGHT!